Tag: Gratitude

My love letter to you.

The countdown has begun for me; a week and we will pack up the truck and travel to destination Edmonton, AB.

It has been a long time since I have had the fluttery, uneasy feeling in my stomach every time my mind drifts towards the events of our holiday weekend.

I would never had expected to be here a year ago, not for the pomp and circumstance yet that I put myself out there like I have and I could also not have conceived the support and the celebration of sorts for me doing so either.

I like to think that life is a series of opportunities waiting for you to collect them and as I get older I am discovering the ones you take the leap for or that scare you the most, offer the greatest gift in return when you do so.

Living on our farm in the country has fed my need of isolation, my perceived ideas of being anti-social and has been the hole in which this recluse buried herself.

As of late and the motivation from my Page and its growth has lovingly lent a hand and has pulled me out of the corner.  I have learned through your encouragement that my presence IS valuable in the outside world and so I have embraced myself.

I guess you could say my entry into the REVREV Pin-up Pageant was my coming out party and well in my nature it is go big or go home.

I am not by any means an assuming character and I put my faith into if this is meant to be it will.  My challenges were plenty I needed to ask for help because I was not going to be able to do this on my own.

My asking for your help and you all have brilliantly stepped up to the plate and have cheered me on in a way I could not have dreamt of.

This has been the prize for me.

We all are here to sparkle in our own ways and no matter your perception of someone you never really know how life changing something as small as a smile can be to a stranger.

Thank you does not seem enough to express my gratitude to you for your time through your voting and all of your beautiful comments on the pictures I have posted.

Thank you for the sparkle I see in my kids eyes because they are excited and seeing their Mum do something that is new.

Thank you for coming along with me on this journey. BmB xx

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The SWAG has arrived, the CONTEST rules are HERE..xx

Well the good stuff has arrived and I have started addressing envelopes..!

We are 2 likes away from 1500 Likes and the contest part of the give-away is about to begin.

To enter the contest to win the Boss Mare Betty Tote filled with goodies you need to submit a photo of “Where I would put my Boss Mare Betty Sticker” this will qualify you to receive a BmB sticker and is your entry to the contest.

You have until 8pm Sunday June 2nd to get your photo submitted to the Page (via message or post to my wall) Once received your picture will be added to the album ‘Who wants a sticker I DO I DO’ then it’s up to you to promote your picture..xx

To WIN the Tote is simple; the photo with the most likes by 8pm, Sunday June 9th will win.  So share your photo that is within the album with your friends. Tote will be sent to the winner June 14th, 2013. (In case of tie, the contest close time will be extended by 30mins)

Thank you for being apart of fun..! Good luck..! 

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To Contest or Not to Contest…?!

This is a question that I amuse to myself, off and on.

 

First, I am not really sure what I would offer as a prize?

 

I then reflect on this.

I feel as if the likes that I receive on my FB Page or here on the site are due to a sincere appreciation for what you have read or seen.  I don’t want to pervert the experience because of solicitation, a lure, baiting or offering of a prize; it kind of goes against the authenticity of these mediums.

 

YET I am close to 1000 likes on my Page and I would like to do something for you all as appreciation of my Page.

 

Problem is I don’t want to isolate anyone either.

I feel what I offer is far reaching as I encompass a few subjects that are near and dear to me and how you find your way here depends on what appealed to you.

 

I have seen Pages offering fan of the Month and even then I cannot come to judging whom is the greatest fan as you might appreciate your experience just as much if not more than another with out cause to comment and so what basis do I have to vote or pick.

 

What it is I do, or why you would want to subscribe to my on-line offerings can be as I said before varied.  The typical of my genres I don’t fit into so again I am not sure if one would want anything custom from me.

 

I do appreciate all who have come to my on-line locations, regardless if you have made your presence known or not.  You all deserve a prize..xx

Maybe once I am at 1000 I will do something fun..!

I have a door to shut..

Small home, average sized family, cold climate 6 months of the year which means a lot of inside time and I decide to home school.

My boys are close in age, shared a room all their lives.  They got to a point where they were trying to devise ways of killing each other and I was soon going to do the job for the both of them, it was decided they needed to be separated.

 

Upheaval in the home, swap the layout to an unconventional arrangement to assure these two receive the dividing walls they longed for.

 

A 3 bedroom home, the eldest child is a girl so she takes the parents room.  The boys are split between the remaining two and the parents end up in the living room.

 

6 months of home schooling and the combined pressure and lack of general privacy I had to make the change back.

 

I had forgotten the magical lure of the door.  Although the simplest structure, it can offer a lot of power and control of your immediate environment.

 

The door is a major key to privacy and the ability to remove you.

 

Even still today, weeks after the change back I have much gratitude laying on the bed and gazing at the door.  The door has increased its value to me.  I finally have that momentary breath when I can shut it and leave it all on the other side.

 

The door became the vessel to relieve me, give me the 5 minutes I might need to re-fuel and head back into the game.

 

I would soon discover the power and pleasure in placing my hand around the cool knob of the door, tightening my grasp and I turn it while pushing the door into place behind me.

 

Another secret joy, is my NEW to me door has a lock, even better.. xx

 

 

The Dress Metaphor..

It has taken a little while for me to gather the thoughts and words for the transition I went through this summer.

I am a very full person, I am great full for all that I have and am afforded the luxury of exploring avenues to find out who I am. I am dynamic and have a lot of interests.

I also live in an area where the weather can determine my interests at any given time because minus temps and snow can make it hard to be committed.

This I know for sure, I am very committed to my horses, their way being and the philosophy of their way of being. These animals require a unique equality and humane treatment. This is very important to me and is translated through the level of care and respect they receive.

Horses are large animals with even larger hearts. They have certain monetary requirements in order to maintain a good balance care system for them. This means quality feed, safe shelter and infrastructure, hoof maintenance, assorted tools and equipment such as sawdust and blankets.

Horses consume me, they are my life blood. The horses ground me and keep me balanced. Give me greater perspective to the world and nature yet they ask for nothing in return and I honour them by my care.

My beliefs and what the horses have taught me through my own personal experiences are that they are great healers, amazing and majestic creatures and to be in their presence is a gift unlike any monetary object.

The horses in allot of ways can be the polar opposite of my other interests such as car culture, tattoos and Pin Up. Last summer my confusion in my contrasting interests really came to a head for me.

I wondered that in some way I was no longer honouring or being true to myself..? If I could be so opposite from one day to the other, was it a contradiction to be full and satisfied by the horses yet dressing up and playing in Pin Up style the next.

I learned life is what you make of it and the intention behind your actions.

If you would meet me with the horses you would get to know me on a more personal and deeply connected level. As I consider the farm to be a spiritual place and the horses great and wise teachers you would feel and learn that only a stripped down most intimate self will be acknowledged here.

The horses do not recognize your external veneer they see your spirit, the internal essence of yourself that shines from with in. Regardless of what you hold inside, regardless if you have walls made to protect yourself, pain or dis-ease in your body, regardless. These horses see you as you are.

I was aware that anytime I would dress up, the horses were not as interested to interact or participate in the charade.

I felt Boss Mare Betty was the pretty and sparkly side of me. I did not see that I already was yet her coming out would serve as another way to teach me and make me clearer and aware that I could be all that I never knew I was.

I am a very self protecting type of person that does not trust easily and yet Boss Mare Betty put me out on a social platform I did not expect and has taught me allot.

One thing I never realized was the desire and need for validation.

I owe allot to the brilliance of my Pin Up self as she has helped me see I can get myself and my thoughts out to the world and support the foundation of my beliefs. I am now aware I can do this for myself to get my most cherished beliefs of the horses out to help others.

It was nothing short of a blessing the day I was referred to Rowena’s. I never expected the woman I have grown into through purchasing their styles and fashions. This in a way sounds shallow and contradicting yet I never saw myself as a pretty girl and the evolution in itself is at such a large magnitude for me it is anything but shallow.

I have more than one girl needs in terms of dresses and shoes and after the purchase of the Floral exclusive Heidi I stopped purchasing dresses because I knew the balance was off with the horses and I needed to look inside and understand what my intention was.

I was on the cusp of more than one monumental change in my personal perspective. I would be home schooling my 2 boys and being their facilitator my time was going to change. I also needed to decide of I kept Boss Mare Betty’s page going. Knowing I did not have personal pictures to post and then not the time to write I had to come up with another reinvention.

The snow has come and the temps dropped.

I started to look through new eyes at life and perspective and I am great full for all that I learn and have learned I also discovered with my new intention in regards to Boss Mare Betty the horses regarded the transition differently too.

When I came to the understanding that I did not need the dresses rather want them and keeping my desire in perspective and clear intention the horses no longer shied away from me rather they came forth.

Since writing this I have acquired 2 new dresses and I feel great about them. I know that there can be balance and that you can express yourself in different mediums as long as you are true to yourself.

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