Tag: Personality

My dance with Michael Jackson

My dance with Michael Jackson

 

I grew up with MJ. In my eyes he was divine and I even went as far as begging my mum to get me a sparkly glove.  At a young age I got his strong lyrical message and connected to his amazing beat structure and musicality.

I felt his message and I felt connected to his individuality and that as a famous person in the eyes of millions he too felt alone and misunderstood.

Having had three children now and truly getting new life lessons and the appreciation of advocacy as a parent I have learned and shown my self an inner strength I believe we get as you become a parent. Maybe I was not the strongest in my voice for myself yet when it came to my kids I could embrace the lioness within.

In your children you have a second chance to go through any struggles or issues you may have had as a child yourself.  It is also the time you get to help set out a path of understanding and compassion for your children so they can make their own ways, feelings, connections and so forth.

One of the big lessons we have had to experience in our family is acceptance by others, treating others as you would wish to be treated and simply appreciating others for whom they are and not what they look like.

Four years ago we moved away from a city centre where we were seen as pretty regular people with a thriving business we were known in our area and respected.  We moved across the Province to a farming community where our world was literally turned upside down.  We are now the outcasts, the freaks and for this the children endured the harshest criticisms and the like from people that preach their love of a higher power and goodness of all.

My tattoos and personal style seem to have stirred controversy amongst the community and for anyone that has tattoos will understand there comes a time when you simply no longer see them.

I do not see myself as others see me and that’s life, really isn’t life just about perspective?

Looking different has been an opportunity for my children to learn and at the end of the day they do not see me any differently.  This I know as they know me no other way.

2 summers ago I started developing random spots on my body where all pigment was absent and I was left with splotches.  It was not until this summer that is dawned on me what was going on.

At first it was a bit of a running joke and as the amount of spots increased as well as their locations funny turned into insecurity.  As odd as that may sound as I am heavily tattooed on my upper body, now my body was making it’s own art.

At first my insecurities got the best of me and then knowing my family saw me no differently I moved into researching Vitiligo which ended up being ridiculous.  It seems there is not much information or understanding of the condition other than it being an auto-immune disease.

I would read there could be a connection to the Type one Diabetes I live with as I am Insulin dependent which basically means I give myself injections.

During my research simply out of curiosity and absent of all fear I decided to google images of Vitiligo to see where this could go and all of my thoughts came to a stand still when “His” image came up first.

I was flooded with an over whelming sense of compassion and a little taste that would have my mind boggled in appreciation for Michael Jackson.

My whole life I have gone out of my way to make myself different through tattooing, hair colouring and clothing style and yet when my body decided to join in, this caught ME off guard.

I then could barely get my mind around how “He” did it.

Michael Jackson’s career in front of the public eye started very young in his life.  He was younger than my children are now in age and what do we all know about being famous or known, well it’s that you have to look the part.  Image is everything and with image comes pressure in order to succeed.

What have I learned about Vitiligo, you cannot control it, there is no cure and there is no way of knowing how fast and large or even where on your body the spots of absent pigment will show up on you.

For me the Vitiligo is only very noticeable in the summer months because I tan.  I am naturally a fair skinned person so the spots are barely there yet for any person with a darker pigment skin this jig saw puzzle of sorts, the un-uniform pattern that the Vitiligo paints on it’s canvasses becomes even more present on they.

So being that Michael Jackson was of a darker pigment skin, young in age being prepared for a huge career in front of the public eye and now discovering these odd spots upon his skin, I cannot imagine.

In hopes of trying to camouflage himself for acceptance as the pressure would increase as his fame escalated he would receive backlash as his looks changed. He would be persecuted for trying to be as one.  It makes me feel for his message even more.

For this and that moment I connected to MJ and from his own personal strength and integrity I let go of what ever my mind wanted to conjure up.  I was great full for this dance with Michael Jackson.

We have always heard or been told to never judge a book by the cover and there is a lot of truth in those words. As a human one of the greatest gifts is our ability to self express and be individuals.

This coming year I have decided to home school my children because I want them to embrace who they are and to grow and excel in their own beautifulness.  I think the things we might feel are different or awkward about ourselves are indeed what make us unique and beautiful.

Some of us are not so lucky to choose what makes us look different than others yet we need to embrace each others choices, there is beauty in us all.

This is not for a selected few.

 

 

 

 

The BOSS MARE, Betty

The Boss Mare, Betty..

The Boss Mare is the lead female horse within a herd.. She is who all the other horses look up to yet she has her responsibilities to the herd as well..

We have always had horses and years ago it came to me that I was the Boss Mare of our 2 legged herd.. As the Mum it is my job to ensure the youngest are safe, we have food and shelter when needed.. I require respect in a firm yet loving way to ensure we work together..

An animal can teach you much about life when you are quiet enough to listen and learn.. Admiration for horses and their way has helped me be the Mum I am today..

This independent character was the natural progression for me to embrace as she has taught me so much.. It was really only a matter of time before she required her own stage or mark on the social media platforms in the world of internet..

Boss Mare Betty is one of the many facets of myself. My daily life is about being on a farm, tending to small animals and the care of our horses.. The children are in an environment that allows them the natural freedom of simply being kids and because my husband and I have made choices for us to live our dream we are very happy and committed to each other even after 10 years of marriage..

We do not live that close to the nearest town.. Our favourite city is a 7 hour drive. We are really out in the tullies as they say.. If you were to stop by on any given day I would greet you in johdpurs and paddock boots.. That is unless it is our 6 month winter I am bundled up in snow pants and snow gear braving the -40.

So this you see is why going to town is a big deal, I average a trip about once a week to stock up on food and supplies and this is when Betty emerges..

My husband and I have a shared passion of tattooing, car culture and of course Pin Up.. Town days are my opportunity to step out into the world as cute as can be.

I decided it was time to showcase my interest, photo’s, reviews and journalling as it is lonesome being the only Doll in town.. ❤ YET since getting active on-line I have learned from Betty that the sky is the limit and I can make things happen.

I chose the name Betty an accumulation of woman that have stood out over time, from Betty Boop to Bettie Page and all the skater Betty’s..

For me these two names married well <3.

Although the worlds of farm life and Pin Up style are very opposite to each other, they have also complimented each other and helped me stand apart.. Living on the farm keeps me grounded and allows me to get dirty, where as Betty allows me to dress up, create and do the things that gurl’s dream of..

I love when these two worlds come together.. It is the most honest of places I come from when I am with the horses and to play and dress up including them, being inspired by them is such a reward.. ❤